Mistress Katherine first took control of my orgasms when she took control of much of my life. Orgasms, food choices, bedtime, waking in the morning, and tv watching were all under her control. I was grateful that she was willing to change my behavior. Back then, I wasn’t able to monitor myself. Eventually, that changed– except orgasms. While I have learned to limit how much I sleep, what I eat, and how much tv I watch, I’ll never be able to control how often I cum. If my orgasms weren’t managed, I’d rapidly become a disobedient, self-centered male. In order for me to be a happy, productive submissive, I need a woman to tell me when I can–and cannot–cum.
It took me many months to come to terms with that concept. I spent most of my life cumming when I wanted to. It gives me immense pleasure. Handing that control to my Mistress helps me maintain my subservience. My orgasms don’t benefit my Mistress. I’m only allowed to masturbate. It’s something that I do for myself. However, I’m not entitled to that pleasure. Contrary to my original belief, it is not my birth right. In the hierarchy of my purpose, my Mistress’ happiness comes first. If her needs are being met, then I need to be useful to other women. When those criteria are met, then I might be allowed an orgasm. I can’t experience pleasure if my Mistress is unhappy and I’m not being of use to other women.
Asking Mistress if I Can Cum
When I want to cum, I consider how long it’s been since the last time. Past experience has shown that my Mistress doesn’t want me cumming too often. I also consider if my Mistress is pleased with me. Asking permission while she is annoyed with me never turns out well. I also mentally make a list of times I’ve been useful to other women since the last orgasm, in case she asks. If I believe she is likely to allow me to cum, I message her asking for permission. Waiting for an answer can be nerve-racking. Sometimes she’ll respond immediately. Other times, it’s hours. Usually, she’ll give a short reply either denying or allowing my orgasm. Sometimes she’ll ask me what I’ve done to earn that privilege. Occasionally, she’ll berate me for thinking that I deserve an orgasm.
Of course, when she allows me to orgasm I’m very happy. But I don’t take it for granted. It is a gift that she is generous enough to give me. It drives me to be a better sub.
When she denies my orgasm, I’m disappointed but I know that it is for the best. I need to be denied occasionally. I need to feel her power over me. I need her to correct my selfish behavior. I need her to withhold my pleasure even if only for 24 hours. I don’t know what she is thinking when she denies my request. In my mind, she is smiling to herself when she texts, “Not today. Ask tomorrow.” I hope she enjoys the control she has over me. All day, I feel a certain happiness knowing that the frustration between my legs is due to her power. One word from her can change me from frustrated to rapture.
Strictly speaking, I don’t believe my Mistress uses orgasm control as a reward or punishment. It is used to guide my behavior; to keep me focused on her needs and being useful to other women. To prevent me from spending too much time playing with my cock and not enough time being of service to women. If I am being a valuable sub, I am allowed to cum. If I’m not a valuable sub, I don’t cum. It feels more and more like a law of nature. One that I want to live by.
Benefits of Orgasm Control
I’m sure every male can relate to the physical aspect of not cumming. For me, it is the emotional aspect and the power dynamic that I respond to. By controlling my orgasms, my Mistress decides if I am allowed physical pleasure—if I’m allowed this specific form of happiness. It’s a reminder that my penis is a very low priority and that she is a very high priority.
My emotions run the full spectrum. When I’m denied an orgasm, sometimes I feel like a bad boy who had his favorite toy taken away. Sometimes I feel ashamed because my Mistress has noticed that I’ve been an inadequate sub before I noticed. When I’m given permission, I feel joy. Sometimes receiving permission from my Mistress is more enjoyable than the orgasm itself. Almost always, her response focuses me on what is important: being a useful submissive now and in the future.
Regardless of the immediate emotion, I always feel respected, loved, and submissive. It’s an effective way to keep me under her control; to keep me focused on being a productive submissive. If I feel mad or upset (only for a moment, mind you) I know that I have a problem that is preventing me from being the best sub I can be and I must change my thinking.
I’m very grateful to my Mistress for controlling my orgasms. I know that this is an integral part of being a submissive male. I understand that I will never be allowed to cum without permission for the rest of my life. To be a happy, well-behaved submissive, I have to give control of my orgasms to her.
–puppy
Very concisely written and well reasoned. Reading this was both inspiring and unnerving. Inspiring because how impressive this subs devotion is to servitude and to you and how completely he seems to comprehend his role. Unnerving because his mighty devotion has shaken my confidence in my own standing and capabilities as a sub. I have much to contemplate. Again, impressive reasoning and devotion.
Thank you, creature.